My whole life I have been waiting. Waiting for the war to end. Waiting to grow up. Waiting for love. Waiting to be a mom. Always waiting, for that next thing, experience, that life might throw my way. This way of thinking was probably a direct result of my less than typical childhood growing up in the middle of a war in Sarajevo, Bosnia and Herzegovina in the early 1990s. The psychological pressure of not knowing if you will live or die, or if you will have something to eat or drink the next day, definitely took its toll on my life. I always approached life and its multifaceted experiences with more than a dash of fear: afraid to make mistakes, afraid to get hurt and afraid of change. So I just waited.
However, recently after becoming a mom for the first time, I realized – waiting is exhausting. I was tired, and not because of the exhaustion that accompanies motherhood; I was tired of constantly living in anticipation and trepidation of life’s many “what if’s”. I don’t want to be afraid, I want to live life to its fullest and teach my daughter and my son to be fearless. I want them to know life is beautiful and that they shouldn’t waste precious moments living in fear of the “what if’s”, as I have for over 20 years.
So here I am – ready to lead by example and ready to finally do something I love. Light and Airy has been my dream for a long time. It is meant to be the place where I get to share with others the things, people, places, stories and ideas that inspire me and bring joy to my soul.
I can only hope that they do the same for you.